it's been a while since we talked like this.
I'm feeling a bit lost, a bit stuck....a bit far away from you right now. My mind and heart know that you are the truth, and I believe that you rose again to save me, but I'm just not sure that my life is really showing that. It is so hard to live with an eternal perspective. I'm so selfish and stuck on trying to "be happy" right here, right now, that I'm forgetting what it means to live for you. I still feel like a child in my faith. How do I grow?
I've prayed for passion before. I'm asking again. Give me passion for you. Show me what it means to live to glorify you and enjoy you! I know that you want me to live abundantly right here on earth, and that if I can just let go and trust you that I will see your will for my life.
God, be my best friend again. Help me not to rely on my husband to fulfill me, when that is supposed to be your job. I know you are just waiting for me to let you in. Open my heart.
You are so amazing Jesus, and I don't tell you enough how happy I am to be your child. Set my heart on fire for you, help me to feel that deep down joy that only you can give.
Remind me what is truly important in this life. Help me to cultivate my friendships and not let them whither just because I'm far away from home. Thank you so much for Kristin and Theresa and Kelsey....be with them and keep them safe!
I love you God. I miss crawling up into your lap like a child and feeling your strong, secure arms around me. Let me have child-like faith without being childish.
All of this in your holy name I pray, amen.
Your child,
Amanda
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